Getting back to business, nose constipation, and other silliness. 


It’s so good to be feeling better, and getting back into my routine.  Getting back to work.  Getting back to working out.

I went to my Monday night TRX class after quite an absence, and was amazed at how weak I had gotten.  I was teasing with the instructor when she asked where I had been.  I told her my nose was constipated.  She looked at me funny.  I continued to explain.  The last 2-3 days I was sick, I could breath, but there was a lot of crap stuck in my sinuses that would not come out!  I got a quite a chuckle out of that.  Of course she went on to kick my butt in the workout, and I went home a tired, sweaty mess with completely clear sinuses.

The other side product of being sick was losing my taste for wine.  I tried having a glass Friday night with dinner, and I was not interested in finishing it.  So it’s been a couple of weeks of being alcohol free, and I’m thinking I will just keep that status, and see how my physical self responds over time.  It would be great to lose some weight.

One of the other great quandaries going on in my head, and on my head is what to do with my hair.  Do I go gray?  Looking at the now substantial roots of gray, and thinking about having to go through the color, highlight process….do I want to just let the natural gray come out?  Do I have the patience to do that?  I see more and more beautifully gray-haired women own their silver tresses like champions.  It’s very motivating, I can tell you.  What I have to decide, is it for me?

I have to do something quick, decision-wise, on the hair.  I’m on the road again Friday, and this skunky gray streak down the middle of my head won’t pass muster.

Today I’m grateful for choices.  I’m grateful to be feeling better, to be able to work out, and to be back to work. 

Foggy days-daze

Ever have one of those ‘foggy’ days, when thoughts are fleeting and lost?

Yesterday I was in a foggy daze.

I got lost.

I got found.

I messed up every time I turned around.

It’s not me.  That’s not who I am.

Who is it then?

Shaking off the fog, I was watching myself as if I was someone else.

I had to laugh at myself to keep from a dark and sinister condemnation.

What is worse then tearing your own self down?

My big challenge:  to speak to myself, about myself, in caring and supportive tones.

That’s not easy.

But…..(don’t you just cringe at the but?)

BUT!  I am sharp, well thought out, decisive, articulate, funny, resourceful, practical, forgiving, and kind.  I am confident, capable, well able to get from point A to point B without getting lost.  I see detail, and have a great memory.  I don’t fail, I learn.  I can do this, even when it’s foggy.

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I’ve got a few things on my mind

First!  I’m so grateful that our lovely blogging buddy Diane from Ladies who lunch came through her surgery well, and is resting and recovering.

Cheers to you and your boobs!  Just in time for Save the TA-Tas month.


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Second. 

I finished up my full second week of work still smiling.  I’m a happy girl, actively employed, enjoying getting back to my industry and friends.  I lost some of my desk “stamina”, but I’m sure with time and practice, I can get back in condition.

I’ve forgotten how to pack….so I’m scrambling to get ready to fly to Vegas for a convention.  I may have overpacked.  Fortunate for me, there is great shopping where I’m headed!  That way I can bring a second suitcase home?  I might need to rethink this.


I’m not a gambler by any stretch of the imagination, so I hope I get to Coddywomple around the strip and people watch.

Our group is at the Luxor.  Between the Pyramid, the Eiffel Tower, and the dancing water at the Bellagio, I will have a lot to see.


Cheers all!  Have a great weekend.

Gratitude Thursday

  
It’s rainy, and a bit chilly out.

But I got the garden beds turned and fertilized before the rain.  I’m grateful.

It took 8 hours total to break up and weed the three vegetable beds.  I’m grateful for the strength and time to do it.

6 big garbage bags of debris have been taken to the curb.  I’m grateful for garbage pick up.

My muscles are sore, and my hands are a bit scratched and cut up.  I’m grateful to be able to grow things, and a big yard to grow them in.

What are you grateful for today?

Blah phooey!

Goals…..

What gets you out of bed in the morning shouting “I have to!…”

Other than a child crying….nothing moves me out of bed because I have to.

In the last 22 years of my professional life, I have set goals. I’ve been measured, weighed, met, and not met goals. I’ve been ignored, left to my own devices and exceeded goals. I’ve been at the top of the production chart, and at the bottom. Ironically, I made more money at the bottom.

I’ve been inspected, encouraged, and threatened…it means nothing to my goals. Goals are set to get people to do something, because management has to say something to the board of directors.

It really means nothing other than your bosses’ bonus and over promise of delivery.

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There is something that I’ve learned in the last 30 years of being poked, prodded, manipulated, and threatened…..

Everything happens in its time. Nothing I force ever works out. No amount of analyzing “why” makes a difference. No “goal” has ever driven me higher than my own connecting, and being true to myself has ever done.

If I follow another’s path, I make myself foolish.

Authenticity is what creates my opportunity.

So I am grateful today for the ability to read a situation, and work according to what’s needed for my clients, knowing that in the end…..it will all work out.

Happy 2015! Out with the Old, In with the New?

I had to go back to look at my first post for 2014, and get a good reminder of my frame of mind for starting out the new year last year.

New Years comes around on a regularity, you can’t stop time.  It marches on in steady procession.

Last year at this time, I was on the cusp on a new job.  I really enjoy my new job, and I am looking forward to dedicating my full attention to it after having to prioritize the family issues that needed my attention from April till now.  I’m so blessed to have found a ‘work family’ who completely supported me while I went from hospital to hospital across the country to be with loved ones who needed me.

At the start of 2014, I was limiting my expectations on people to reduce disappointment.  My main goals were to cultivate gratitude, and learn something new.

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I’m grateful that I got my first motorcycle, and my husbands patience with me as I get better and better at riding it.

I learned some new technology, and realized that it was not superior in any way to the technology I knew.  Lessons learned.  Thank You Apple for taking me back.

I was restored to a life long friend.  What a blessing.

My husband took me on a wonderful 20th anniversary/50th birthday trip, and I got to have a fabulous hot air balloon ride. Yes, I took that picture with my phone!

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We hiked the Muir Woods, and had a blast!

A year filled with great books to read.  Thank you Clive Cussler, Dan Brown, David Baldacci, Vince Flynn, and Markus Zusak for your wonderful works.  Thank you for keeping me company in the airports, hotels and restaurants.   I’m sorry that I have read the last of Vince Flynn’s stories of Mitch Rapp.  What a loss.  Blessings of Peace to the Flynn family.

My mother is no longer suffering, and has gone home to be with the Lord.

My grandmother followed shortly there after to join her, and lived a fabulous 99 years.  We will celebrate her home-going in a few days.  It is very odd to think that my cousins and I are now the oldest of the female line of this family.  All our mothers, aunts, and grandmothers are gone now.  Whoosh.  That is just weird.

My son is doing wonderfully, and only using his pace maker 3-5% of the time.

2014 was fraught with challenges, successes, new things, saying hello, and saying goodbye.

My hopes for 2015 on this first day of the New Year, is that it is the best year ever.  May it be filled with Grace, Peace, Favor, and Prosperity.

I don’t know what it will bring, but I know whatever comes my way, I have wonderful people in my life that will make going through worth while.

Thank you to everyone who has visited, commented, liked, and reblogged.  My very best to all of you.

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Cheers to cultivating the thorns out of 2015!  Keep pulling those weeds.