Do I do it?

My gal pal Kimberly and I had lunch today.

I wanted to show her a picture on my phone.

“I found this boy for $400.00. Everyone else wants $850 or $900.”

She leaned in and said. “What does he look like?”

I think she thought I was referring to a different kind of boy. 😎

My quandary in getting a new puppy is my current dog Dolly.

Dolly is a bit camera shy. And she’s been in a real funk since our Rascal passed away in February.

At one point she stopped eating, lost 6 pounds, and got really anxious if I ever left the house.

She will play on occasion, but only for a few tosses of the ball. She insists on having the ball she and Rascal played with close to her when she eats and sleeps.

Dolly was very competitive with Rascal. If he wanted to play, she wanted to win. If he was on my lap, she was leaning against me. If he had food, she wanted to eat it.

Rascal took it all in stride, and always shared everything he had, as long as he could play. He didn’t care if she took his food, or if she’d steal his ball. It was all a game to him.

I don’t know if bringing a new puppy in would be good for her. Part of me thinks it will. She hates going outside by herself. She doesn’t want to be in the house by herself. She has lost her food motivation and has gotten thinner. She will go to her pillow and watch me.

Part of me wonders if she will resent the puppy. She’s the Only dog now, she’s got all of our attention, but she still seems sad. I know she misses her buddy. Will she accept a new buddy?

I have the puppy “wants” really bad. I miss my joy boy. I miss the wet ball he’d push on my hand to tell me he wanted to play. I miss when he’d push open the door to the bathroom to make sure he had me in his line of site. I miss the way he’d army crawl up from the foot of the bed to give me good morning kisses 20 minutes before the alarm would go off…his button tail just going 100 miles an hour so happy to get the day started. I miss the way he’d hang out with me in the yard while I worked in the flower beds. I miss the happy bark he’d make when I’d get his leash for a walk, or when I’d whisper “want to go see the cow friends?” He was joy on four paws. I miss the joy of having that loving, sweet, happy, ball of fluff in my life.

Of course, there is no replacing Rascal. I do hope that I can add back some sweet joy and energy to the house again, and not hurt Dolly in any way. She’s been a good dog. Loyal, powerful, and loving girlfriend. I hope I can help get some of her spark back too.

I’m just not sure. Puppies today are complicated. There are deposits, and contracts, and MDR1 carrier issues to think about. Why do I need a 3 page contact to buy a puppy? I found Rascal with the breeder outside of A Big Box hardware store on a Tuesday afternoon. He had the mom and dad too and was showing off their Frisbee skills and the puppies. I paid $300, and brought him home.

Maybe another rescue? Dolly was a rescue, but she had some major issues, very expensive….sometimes disturbing issues, that took us years, and a Rascal to fix.

To Puppy or Not to Puppy? That is the question.