As I gave up on resolutions, and accepted where I am right now I started to understand how much I have changed over the last 5 years.
In March of 2013 I started this blog as a basic attempt to have a focused time of Gratitude. I wanted to find something every day, if possible, to be grateful for.
In 2013, I was really struggling trying to take care of my terminally ill mother, travel for work, maintain my marriage, be a mom, go through menopause. I was spread out very thin, and Gratitude was my anchor to keeping a form of balance in my life.
Through the journey of finding gratitude in the little things and big things of my life, I have changed over the last 5 years. It was slow, it wasn’t easy, but as I look back I have changed in more ways than I’ve realized.
Gratitude keeps me grounded, and I have found it’s easier to let things go and not get so stressed.
Being more than just my profession, is the biggest change. I used to solely identify with my work role. I was Wendy the Mortgage Professional. 25 years seasoned mortgage veteran. Blah, Blah, Blah. Now I embrace just being Wendy, and that is plenty good enough.
Women friends. I’ve developed some nice friendships outside of my work friends. I’m so grateful to have these crazy gal pals. They are so much fun, and it has nothing to do with my professional identity.
Learning to laugh at my mistakes instead of agonizing for weeks over them is a big change too.
Self-Care is not selfish. You can’t pour out of an empty vessel. I’ve learned that if I take time to take care of myself, I can better care for others.
I’ve had a lot of fun with Zumba, Yoga and TRX. Fitness has it’s place and helps me keep my stress levels down. I never thought I would ever have the patience or desire to do Yoga. It’s such a pleasure to say that I’ve really come to enjoy it, and it’s one of my favorite things to do.
My bees have taught me a lot about patience, creativity and hard work. I never thought I would be so fascinated with bugs! It is the most surprising things over the last 5 years that I would give one flip about a bug. I love my bees.
I’ve come to better accept myself. I think it was easier to give up on trying to change myself through New Years resolutions, because I have changed so much already, and I like myself better now than I ever have.
Gratitude has been the path of new discoveries, and although the changes have been slow, and small they have made a big difference in me becoming a better Wendy. The journey isn’t finished, and I’m excited to see what happens next.