Do I do it?

My gal pal Kimberly and I had lunch today.

I wanted to show her a picture on my phone.

“I found this boy for $400.00. Everyone else wants $850 or $900.”

She leaned in and said. “What does he look like?”

I think she thought I was referring to a different kind of boy. 😎

My quandary in getting a new puppy is my current dog Dolly.

Dolly is a bit camera shy. And she’s been in a real funk since our Rascal passed away in February.

At one point she stopped eating, lost 6 pounds, and got really anxious if I ever left the house.

She will play on occasion, but only for a few tosses of the ball. She insists on having the ball she and Rascal played with close to her when she eats and sleeps.

Dolly was very competitive with Rascal. If he wanted to play, she wanted to win. If he was on my lap, she was leaning against me. If he had food, she wanted to eat it.

Rascal took it all in stride, and always shared everything he had, as long as he could play. He didn’t care if she took his food, or if she’d steal his ball. It was all a game to him.

I don’t know if bringing a new puppy in would be good for her. Part of me thinks it will. She hates going outside by herself. She doesn’t want to be in the house by herself. She has lost her food motivation and has gotten thinner. She will go to her pillow and watch me.

Part of me wonders if she will resent the puppy. She’s the Only dog now, she’s got all of our attention, but she still seems sad. I know she misses her buddy. Will she accept a new buddy?

I have the puppy “wants” really bad. I miss my joy boy. I miss the wet ball he’d push on my hand to tell me he wanted to play. I miss when he’d push open the door to the bathroom to make sure he had me in his line of site. I miss the way he’d army crawl up from the foot of the bed to give me good morning kisses 20 minutes before the alarm would go off…his button tail just going 100 miles an hour so happy to get the day started. I miss the way he’d hang out with me in the yard while I worked in the flower beds. I miss the happy bark he’d make when I’d get his leash for a walk, or when I’d whisper “want to go see the cow friends?” He was joy on four paws. I miss the joy of having that loving, sweet, happy, ball of fluff in my life.

Of course, there is no replacing Rascal. I do hope that I can add back some sweet joy and energy to the house again, and not hurt Dolly in any way. She’s been a good dog. Loyal, powerful, and loving girlfriend. I hope I can help get some of her spark back too.

I’m just not sure. Puppies today are complicated. There are deposits, and contracts, and MDR1 carrier issues to think about. Why do I need a 3 page contact to buy a puppy? I found Rascal with the breeder outside of A Big Box hardware store on a Tuesday afternoon. He had the mom and dad too and was showing off their Frisbee skills and the puppies. I paid $300, and brought him home.

Maybe another rescue? Dolly was a rescue, but she had some major issues, very expensive….sometimes disturbing issues, that took us years, and a Rascal to fix.

To Puppy or Not to Puppy? That is the question.

Gratitude Tuesday

My youngest son is Graduating on the 25th.

He’s put together his first resume, and has completed 3 interviews.

His first big job offer came in yesterday.

Mom is quite beside herself.

A great reminder

Expectations are things that trip me up.

I’m not sure why I have fallen back into expectations, but I got a good kick in the pants and it’s time to get back to appreciation and gratitude.

Expectations put an unnecessary pressure to situations, and I have found that they also limit my ability to appreciate.

I’m starting off with a fresh perspective this morning.

I’m so grateful for the kick in the pants that woke me up from expectations and reminded me to appreciate the gifts in front of me.

Have you ever been grateful for a kick in the pants?

Gratitude Sunday

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I’m in awe of the ease that 2017 has started with.  I know we are only starting the year, but I am aware of a positivity every where I go.

I don’t mean to imply that all things are without issue, but the issues are more manageable, and the outcomes more pleasing.  

I’ve reestablished a kernel of Joy, deep in my being.  The joy has been growing, and has been one of the missing factors of my gratitude journey.  

Rediscovering joy, has brought a bit more balance, and fun to my life.  It has helped me be more me.

Today, I am grateful for the joy that is growing in me daily.

What are you grateful for today?

Dipping my toe back in

The excitement builds as the start date for my new Job gets closer.

The press release went out today….Snort….I got a press release.  In my nerdy-ness, I sent it to everyone.  Cause, I now have a job.  (giggle)

The energy is amazing as the emails flew about today to prepare for next week, the conference in Las Vegas at the end of this month, the conference in Boston in October, the hosted events already scheduled the next few weeks, and my calendar started to magically fill up.

Even with this little flurry of activity, and preview of what is to come I feel such contentment, such calm delight, such joy.

I’m so grateful.  The last year has been a blur.  Not a bad year by any means.  It has been a learning year, a preparing year, and a resting year.

All the interviews, all the declines, every time I got frustrated, I could hear down deep in my heart.  “Not Yet.”

It’s so exciting that “Yet” is here.  It is time.  Not just that, it is “Go” time.

With my toe back in the water, I can tell the water is great.  I’m ready to jump right in.img_1717

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Getting back to Gratitude

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After my departure from gratitude and joy in my last post, I thought it important to get back to my main theme.

Thanks for letting me rant.

I’m very grateful today for kind commenters, like minded souls, and special friends.

It’s been a record year so far in job rejections. I’ve not been chosen for the last 6 that I’ve applied for.  One position was eliminated, and one company closed their whole line of business.  😳  I had to really get serious about perseverance, and take some time to realize that it’s not so much “rejection” as it is re-direction.

With the latest “thanks anyway” email, I started laughing.  It has gotten to be a bit ridiculous, and I’m tired of feeling bad about it.

So, forward on I go and I’m kinda excited.  There must be something really good out there waiting for little me to show up.  I have this little fantasy going on in my head where I’m in the interview, and my new boss leans back in their chair and smiles at me. They say with such relief. “We have been waiting for someone with your talent and personality for so long.  When can you start?”

How do you deal with redirection?  Have you ever been pushed by the universe at large to a new place?  Did it end up being the best thing that ever happened to you?

8th day of Christmas gratitude–Joy On 4 Feet

We have this dog, Rascal.  I’ve written about him before.  He loves to play, and pose for the camera.

He will sit with me and tempt me with a slobber covered ball.

Sometimes he will bat at it with his paw, if he can’t reach it.  As if to prompt some sort of rescue response out of me.

But inevitably, he gets the ball to give to me.  He wants to play, all the time.

His little docked tail, wiggles back and forth in perpetual motion. 

He’s always happy, and want everyone to be happy around him.

Rascal is Joy on 4 feet.

I’m very grateful for special puppies in my life, even though he’s 7 now, he’s still a puppy at heart.