Humbled

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Sometimes when you stumble, you get the full frontal knowledge of humble.

It’s difficult to move forward effectively when you are looking backwards.

Walking the dogs this morning, I started pouring over the last year.  The trials, the arguments, the obstinacy, the irrational selfishness, the materialistic, petty, stupidity over crappy ‘stuff’…..It ran like a movie through my head.  The look on my mother’s face as she cursed me, belittled my efforts, and demanded more and more while extolling the virtues of her enabling co-dependent friends.  All the while I watched as things fell apart around her, and was powerless to act on her behalf.  The law suit from the step siblings over things that my brother and I never wanted and told them we would make sure got back to them.  Not being able to get my brother to listen to the medical issues, and the concerns I had.  Not being able to function on my job.  Hospitals, funeral homes, airports, rental cars, consultations, rehabilitation sites, physical therapy, plans, interference.  Ka BOOM!

It literally took falling down on my face in the sidewalk to get the movie to stop playing in my head.

I had two wet noses in my face, checking me over in two shakes of a dog’s tail.

Sweet dogs to give me kisses of encouragement, stood by till I brushed myself off, shook the cobwebs and bad memories from my brain, wiped the tears from my face, and gave them a good petting to thank them for their selfless love for me.

When I got home, my phone rang.  My husband calling to check in for the morning heard the stress in my voice.  I got another talking to about my posture, my skin, and how I’ve lost my sparkle.  He went on to tell me how important it is for me to keep focusing on taking care of myself.  Ouch.

On the positive side, I know he is concerned for me.  I’m getting better, but I’m still not fully recovered from all of the events from last year through May.

Humbled.  I’ve stumbled, and I’m humbled.  Time to work on getting better, and that means looking forward, not behind.

I’m very grateful today to have a man who loves me enough to confront me in my state, encourage me to do better, and gives me the time and space to do it.

I’m grateful for puppy dogs to kiss me better when I fall.

I’m grateful for reminders, to keep looking forward….the best is yet to be.

Gratitude and Friendship

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My blog is about cultivating gratitude. Gratitude can be found in little daily doses, but those little doses add up to great contentment.

Sometimes,
When I am by myself
I reflect on the blessings in my life.

I am so humbled by the goodness I’ve been show.

Today I am grateful for so much. My friends who challenge me to be better. Who can argue with me, and still love me. The mutual respect is a rock in the foundation of our friendship.

I leave you with a quote from My Emerson. Yes, he’s mine. I claim him as my favorite.😄

“I do not wish to treat friendships daintily, but with roughest courage. When they are real, they are not glass threads or frost-work, but the solidest thing we know.”

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Unexpected kindness

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Remembering 9-11-2001 by taking flight without fear. God Bless America and the families of those who lost their loved ones 13 years ago.

Hot, busy, tired, and not looking forward to more rounds of MRI appointments at MD Anderson.

The business trip has been productive, and rewarding. The trip home is starting.

Rental car returned, bags checked, Sky Capp tipped, I had the honor to be selected for the quick pre-check line for TSA. The agents were friendly and efficient, and I didn’t have to take off my shoes, or take out my laptop. I thought I won the lottery.

Sitting at the only bar in my concourse, I sipped my Shock Top and stared blankly at the bank of TV monitors spewing the latest in the NFL scandal. If only the media had the same mentality toward our elected officials, as they do for the NFL commissioner…..I digress.

The travelers fill in around me, as I do my best to take up the least amount of space possible…it is a busy day in the airport.

Not being in a jocular mood, I stare at my IPad, the book is open to Emerson’s essay on Prudence. As much as I stare, it goes unread.

This voice intrudes my Boketto. It takes me a few minutes to register that the fellow traveler is speaking to me. He asks where I am headed. I reply “home”.

Little did I know that a one word reply would start such a torrent of unsolicited information. In short order he told me his marital status, how many dogs he owned, how many hours a week he worked, his profession, where he was going, why, and who he would see while he was there.

I asked him a few polite questions, he replied with more information on his Faith, his father, and the projects he had done around San Antonio.

He was off and away as quickly as he set down. He bought my beer, tipped the bartender $10 on an $18 tab. As he departed, he said “my father demonstrated through his life that whatever threshold you cross, be it church, school, business, or bar leave it better than how you found it.”

I wished him a 100 fold return on his generosity, thanked him for the beer, and he seemed surprised at my comment, but pleased.

After he was gone, I was a bit bemused by the encounter, then remembered the scripture about entertaining strangers.

It is those Heavenly Winks, and unexpected blessings that humble me so completely. God loves me, and he sends me that message of love and blessing continually….Sometimes in the strangest places, always when I least expect it, and always when I need it most. God is good to Wendy, even when she is having a beer at the airport .

Random acts of kindness

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Monroe, Louisiana this week was lovely. My new job is not perfect by any means, but the group is just wonderful. We dedicated the new building on Wednesday. A local Pastor came and blessed it, us, and we all prayed over it. What a great way to launch a business channel.

While in Monroe, I got some difficult news and had to head home. The changes in my airline ticket would have cost me close to $700.00. I decided to drive, and it took 4 phone calls to different car rental companies to get a car reserved. (Monroe is not a Mecca for a large rental fleet.) The last call put me in contact with a lovely woman who recognized the stress in my voice, went above and beyond customer service to get me what I needed. When I got to the Rental office, there was no car available. The returns were way over due, and she had nothing to offer me. I thought my co-worker had left, so I settled myself to wait it out in the car rental office. I turned to sit, and my co-worker walked in to check on me to make sure I had been taken care of. She took me to lunch, and brought me back just as my car was ready. The rental office took 10% off my daily rate, reduced my 1 way fee by 50%, and I got a hug goodbye.

I was stressed and alone, but not for long. My new co-worker decided to double check on me. How awesome is that?

The rental company recognized my need to get home, and made sure it cost me as little as possible, and put some humanity into the transaction. It was so cool.

I stopped to fill up before I dropped off the car, and this young man stopped to open the store door for me, and told me he thought I was ‘beautiful’. That completely made my day. It was so random, it shocked me totally.

I made it home to a nice dinner waiting for me.

It’s humbling when so much kindness is heaped in one day. I’m so grateful that there is still so much goodness left in the world.

Go be nice to someone today. You will never know how far those kind gestures go.