Sometimes I need cake

Yes, I’m on a carb fix. Yes, I am comforting myself with food.

There is something about warm Ricotta cake, fresh out of the oven. Especially slathered with freshly whipped cream. It is comfort to my soul.

The quiche was pretty tasty too.

I’ll work out again tomorrow. Tonight I’m eating CAKE!

Not the greatest day

Tomorrow will be better,

But I have to deal with now.

Contingencies, safety,

But when, and who, and how?

I can talk, and talk. And TALK,

But what is ever heard?

I can shut my mouth,

And they demand every word.

What in the hell do I know?

Stop asking me.

Which Way Photo Challenge 3-28-19

Thursday, Thursday, Thursday! It’s the Which Way Photo Challenge from my friend Son of a Beach! Go check out his blog for more details, and fabulous photos.

Here’s my take on it this week from Downtown Austin, Tx.

The photo above is from the 4th floor balcony of Representative Garnet Coleman. In the middle left, you can see the University of Texas Clock tower. Below is not a pond, they are the skylights and Rotunda of the Extension building which is all underground. An amazing view for sure, it’s probably more spectacular at night.

All the faces after 25 years.

My boys, and they have my face, our faces….God help them. They are the mash up between David and I.

They didn’t fall far from the tree. They scraped bark, all the way down. Between my husband and I they have The dimples, Holy smokes….The Chin, The nose, The smile, The eyes, The personalities, the quirks. I’m in awe. They are us, and we are them. I’m such a blessed mama.

When you find yourself amongst your own family, how can that not be home?

The first utterance of gratitude from me is for my family. I’m so blessed to have boys. I really don’t know where I’d be without them.

I can’t wait to see what comes next for my family.

Gratitude Wednesday

Last night was one of those restless nights. Awake at 12:30am, 3:01am, 4:29 am. I finally decided to just get up at 5:30, tired of fighting for sleep.

The funny thing is, I don’t feel overly tired….yet.

In light of no sleep, I’m grateful for good coffee, my pup Dolly, and a break in the rain.

My car is really clean for the first time since January, and I’m ready to make my client calls with my boss today.

The rest of the week, I’m going to let go of things that I can’t control and rest in knowing that nothing meant for me will pass me by.

Happy Wednesday.

And it begins.

Midway thru my first cup of coffee, I have the FoodNetwork up on the TV. Giada is talking about Rotten Fruit.

Rotten Fruit? I had to stop to find out why. So I hit rewind, and played it again.

She was talking about Moroccan Food…..

Choosing to focus on Gratitude

It’s been a tough month. Travel, work, a beloved pet passing, a parent suffering a major fall, another parent moving to full nursing care, selling a parents home, moving all the old stuff, family drama, and I got out of balance and tried to cook my way into a sense of normal.

The sorrow, knowing that my dad will pass soon.

The sorrow knowing my mother in law will pass soon too.

The sorrow over the loss of Rascal.

The swamping, suffocating feeling of helplessness, as things have to be done, now, not later.

It Steals my motivation, energy, and care.

There’s So Much Talk Of Being Wild

https://scurvyq52.wordpress.com/2019/03/15/theres-so-much-talk-of-being-wild/
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CaptainQ had this post this morning. He’s talking about how people on social media appear perfect, and work hard to adjust the perception all the time with their perfect punctuation, pictures etc. It was the right post, at the right time for me. I think I’m a wild and free individual, but maybe I’ve focused on keeping my image a little too “perfectly punctuated.”

I try to keep things reasonably light, and my purpose is to focus on gratitude. I’m not grateful For everything, but I find ways to focus on the good things in my life when the circumstances I’m (neck deep) in aren’t always good.

To drag myself out of the swamping emotions, and feelings of helplessness I choose to be grateful today for:

  1. A really sweet phone call from my husband this morning.
  2. The rain is gone for today, I’ll get to see the sunshine
  3. Time to exercise
  4. My warm and comfy home
  5. My job
  6. Our other dog, Dolly, is eating more, and she seems to be coming out of her sorrow over Rascals passing.
  7. The opportunity to be good to someone today.

Thanks for taking time to read, and I hope wherever you might be, that your Friday is Fabulous.

What are you grateful for today?