It isn’t like I thought would be all roses. But I didn’t think I’d lose them all.
I lost them all.
The last one met me yesterday to let me know they were going on without me…for the best for them. They would be perpetually going on without me.
So, after they all bailed on me for our trip to the Dallas Arboretum. Our original trip was for 10/15. One by one. They all had a really lame excuse. I continued to reach out. To stay connected the last couple weeks. I finally got a response.
The messenger was nervous. Her hands shook. They were moving on without me to the place I introduced them. They are going next week, mid week, without me…to my place the Dallas Arboretum. She felt a bit guilty for that, as it was my idea…but “so what”?
They would be continually moving on. They had other priorities.
I don’t know when I’ve lost so many people in such a short period of time….all women, all who were supposed to be my friends. The ultimate result of “so what?”
There are days when I sincerely dislike women. Groups of women who cling together instead of having individual thought. But how did This happen? I thought I had a better insight, a better creep-o-meter?
The unintended consequences of “so what”.
Today, I am grasping for gratitude. So I go back to the basics.
I’m grateful for life and breath, a husband who loves me beyond measure, beautiful sons, bees, a new job.
So I send my former friends off with appreciation for supporting me over the last year.
I wish I still fit in, but I send you off with all my best.
Onward we go.