Thinking

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Me, last year.  My professional photo for my dream job.

Confidant, happy, fit, sassy (photoshopped kindly by my photographer)….ready to run and succeed.  I had two job offers at once, and was overwhelmed at the choice to make.  I made the wrong choice.  Looking back with regrets, I slap myself to look forward.  Those days are behind me, and what’s done is done.

This year:

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Sweaty, bug bit, no makeup, but happy.  Looking to start over again professionally, but allowing myself the time to do it right this time?  Is there such a thing as ‘doing it right?’  It’s such a leap of faith to go out and put yourself on the line again.  Do I really want to be part of a ‘ground breaking team’?  Ground breaking is damned hard work.  It’s a marathon, it’s messy, its frustrating…..and I’m beginning to wonder if my marathon days are behind me?  I’m looking at three companies.  All would require me to use my contacts, my reputation, and my work ethic to make money for them……What if I change my story?

What if I take the rest of the year off, build up my skills in a new area?  What if I change the way I start over, and not run back to what I know?  If I have to start over anyway….why not change my story?

It’s amazing how a year can turn everything, upside down.

Today, I’m grateful for the time to think, the resources to teach me how to think better, and time to make the right choice.  Eanie, Meanie, Miney, Moe…..ME!

Maybe it’s time for me to realize it’s OK to choose Me.

Jesus help me.  Amen.

10 thoughts on “Thinking

  1. Hi Wendy, You are a gorgeous woman, I can see in the that you are much happier in the second photo. The word for you is Acceptance, like for me, Accept, understand and go ahead. And of course, choose yourself first, we don’t want to make more mistakes, hoping you get a big YES soon for your interviews, if it will be the best for you, if not, go ahead and change your story for a very colourful one. You deserve it!

  2. Thinking is good… listening is also good, listening to the Holy Spirit’s voice, insight, advice, direction, “uh-uh”s, “yes-yes”s, information, “psst”s, pointers, reminders – you get the picture! You’re a good writer, Wendy, keep on sharing. (Thanks for following my “Speaking of Heaven” blog, by the way. Do you also follow Esther’s Petition?) Blessings, Bette

  3. Heyyyy Wendy, look at you all professional and all. Beautiful. I think you’re on the right track. You need to do some looking inside yourself to see just exactly what it is that ‘Wendy’ and ‘Jesus’ wants. I will pray for you, my friend. God’s in the business of directing our steps.
    Bless you and have a wonderful weekend.
    🙂 ❤

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