Hydration, relaxation, meditation


A new addition as I get through day 5 of my experiment.

Hydration with coconut water.  I admit to having purchased this Goya coconut water container about a month ago.  It’s been sitting in my pantry waiting patiently for me to try.

I don’t know if it’s been the coconut oil that I’m getting used to, or just reading the benefits that got me to bust it open today to try it.  It’s sweet, which I’m not thrilled with.  It’s chock full of potassium, carbs and natural sugar, but no fat.  In my reading some have stated its the closest thing to human plasma.  I have no clue if that’s true, but it’s my experiment, what the heck, I’ll give it a twirl.

It might just have to be small doses, and steady as we go with regular mineral water.  The coconut stuff leaves a funky aftertaste.  That might be the sugar, or maybe the thought of plasma has me turning up my nose.

I had a bunch of credits at my local Massage place, so I booked an hour.  When the gal started working on me It was everything I could do not to cry myself into a puddle.  As the stress was worked out of my body, I realized that it was that same stress holding me upright.

So I broke into meditating on Psalm 23, and visualized myself in a grassy, lush pasture having a lovely picnic and relaxing in the sunshine.  It kept the tears at bay, and let me fully let go of the toxic yuck of stress.

Listening to the “massage music”, I wondered what it would be like to work in a spot like it.  Maybe I should get my estititian’s license and do facials?  That’s a thought.  I could totally take myself in a different direction.

Today I’m especially grateful for new blogs to follow, encouraging comments, and new friends.  

I know this transition will take time, but today was a very nice day.  I’m so thankful.

An experiment in nutrition

decompression time.  

For my health, I’m going to try some natural remedies, nutritional improvement, and stress relief.

For the last 4 days, I’ve started a regimine of slowly increased consumption of bee pollen and coconut oil.  I’m talking little fractions of teaspoons, so I don’t freak out my already stressed self.

I’ve noticed that I’m not as hungry as usual.  Sleep is still pretty elusive, but I don’t crave salty foods as much.  

Some noticeable changes, I guess in 4 days.
Why?  That’s the big question.

Coconut oil for its antioxidant, skin, and digestive properties.  


Photo courtesy of Don’t messwithmama.com

I’m not convinced that eating fat will help me lose weight, just saying.

Bee pollen because of the super food nutrional value.

Bee pollen had every mineral the human body needs.

Why not give the body what it needs in 1/2 tsp instead of continuous carrot crunching?

About the stress…I’ve found myself suddenly unemployed. 

While my mother was ill, and dying last fall, I fell drastically behind my quota at work.  When my Grandmother died 23 days after my mother, I fell off the map quota wise.   Sales being sales, it’s a numbers game that I could not fix in the last 30 days.  So I’m no longer at my dream job.  I wish them well.

Facing some harsh reality, my husband–God love him–let me know in his most loving way….the stress has taken its toll.  Something to the effect of ‘ you’ve lost your smile, your shoulders are stooped, and you’ve aged yourself with all you’ve gone through.  There is no spring in your step, you’ve gained weight, and you hide.’

Well howdy.

I have to admit, he’s right.  My skin is showing some significant stress, I can’t look in the mirror without cringing.  Since I don’t look in the mirror very much anymore, I can’t speak to the rest of the charges.

Currently, I find myself not having to travel, or work like hell to gain ground lost over 9 months…I’m going to take some time to refresh, renew, and restore what has been lost.  

Over the next few weeks my focus will be on taking care of my physical self nutritionally; my emotional self by letting myself grieve instead of work, and restoring my spiritual self with lots of help from The Almighty and His mercy and grace.

  Mind, soul, and body.  Dreams, inspiration, and gumption…I’m working toward restoration with all the means at my disposal.  

I don’t know if I’m brave enough to post pictures if there is any improvement, but I will do my best to offer an honest account of this journey.

Growing things


Little Green tomato peeking out at me.


Here comes the squash.  See it?


Squash blossom….female.

Did you know that squash and zucchini have female and male flowers?  Very important to keep an eye on pollination.  They need bees.

I’ve been so grumpy this morning, until I got outside and spent some time in the sunshine and the dirt.


The In-Between


We spend the majority of our time between one thing and the next.

How are you spending that time?

Today I’m choosing a mindful awareness for the In-between. Today I will focus on what I’m grateful for.

Today, something good will happen, and it will probably happen In-between something else.


To meet a warrior, is a special experience.

To hear a warrior tell his story is humbling.

When he pulls his breath in sharply through his teeth, and clamps down on visible emotions running across his face….we all held our breath, then I wept.

To watch a warrior laugh with his friend gave me a glimps into a special world.

To get an autographed copy of Lone Survivor, my husband will be jealous. 

Shaking the Warrior’s hand, and saying thank you seemed like the most paltry response to such an overwhelming sacrifice of blood, bone, and limb.

Emotionally wrecked after 2 hours of Chad Flemming and Marcus Lutrell…..we are so fortunate to have such men serve to protect our nation.  The situation deserved some serious quiet reflection.  

The most poignant question asked by Marcus Lutrell was “why are your friends, your friends?”  He went on to propose that you don’t really have good friends, until you go through something tough together.  Marcus, had and has some tremendous friends.

If you ever have the opportunity to see either of these Warriors speak, regardless of your political view, their human experience, and their drive to succeed, win, and overcome terrible obstacles is inspiring.

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

What I enjoy about the blogs I follow, is that there is always something poignant and timely that makes me breathe freely, and smile. Enjoy this classic poem by William Ernest Henley.

A Small Act Of Kindness Can Bring Smile On Million Faces

Out of the night that covers me,
      Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
      For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
      I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
      My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
      Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
      Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
      How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
      I am the captain of my soul.

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